Float

Because you mentioned this amazing & haunting song by Blue October.

 No one should jump into the water alone. You don't have to sink or swim. You should always have buddy when you go into the water. But, I understand how it feels, believe me. Where is the Coast Guard? Where is the beam from the lighthouse? Hold on to something.

I'm just a normal boy

That sank when I fell overboard

My ship would leave the country

But I'd rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I'd be stuck again

Wish I was much more masculine

Maybe then I could learn to swim

Like '14 miles away'

Now floating up & down

I spin, colliding into sound

Like whales beneath me diving down

I'm sinking to the bottom of my

Everything that freaks me out

The lighthouse beam has just run out

I'm cold as cold as cold can be...

I want to swim away but don't know how

Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean

Let the waves up, take me down

Let the hurricane set in motion, yeah

Let the rain of what I feel right now come down

Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard?

I keep looking each direction

For a spotlight, give me something

I need something for protection

Maybe flotsam, junk will do just fine

the jetsam sunk, I'm left behind

I'm treading for my life, believe me

(How can I keep up this breathing?)

Not knowing how to think

I scream aloud, begin to sink

My legs & arms are broken down

With envy for the solid ground

I'm reaching for the life within me

How can one man stop his ending

I thought of just your face

Relaxed, & floated into space

I want to swim away but don't know how

Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean

Let the waves up, take me down

Let the hurricane set in motion

Let the rain of what I feel right now come down

Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun

I calculate what I had done

Like jumping from the bow,

Just to prove I knew how,

It's midnight's late reminder of

The loss of of the one I love

My will to quickly end it all

Set front row in my need to fall

I want to swim away but don't know how

Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean

Let the waves take me down

Let the hurricane set in motion,

Let the rain of what I feel right now come down

Let the rain come down