Today is the day... the one where my hormones make me into a crying, screaming, crazy mom.
Today is the day... the one where I can only scream at my husband for not understanding that I don't want his help-but that he isn't doing anything to help me!
Today is the day... where I start to cry because my son won't pick up his socks from the floor.
Today is the day... where I hide in my closet with my head in my hands weeping because I can only wear maternity pants.
Today is the day... the one that only allows me a 45 second shower because no one can hear the baby cry but me and our three year old.
Today is the day... the one where I become insanely jealous of my neighbor who's children are all grown and out of the house and she can come and go in life as she pleases.
Today is the day... the one where I see my blessings as burdens.
Today is the day... where I secretly fantasize about what life would be like without children.
Today is the day... where I want to burn all of the baby books in the world because no one tells you about this day-the one where you hurt, you are sad, and you just want to run away.
Today is the day... when I can't see my life ever getting out of the nursing, diapering, and baby stage.
Today is the day... where I feel trapped.
Today is the day... where I know this is all hormones, but I can't help but feel overwhelmed and under qualified.
Today is the day... where I want all the other moms to know that we all go through this.
Today is the day... where I want all the moms to know that although they feel alone-we have all been at this exact same place.
Today is the day... where I have to convince myself that tomorrow will be better, and next week is not so far away.
Today is the day... that although I feel guilty for all of my thoughts and worries, I am still a good mom and I am OK.
I hate today.
On a positive note... today is the day my "outie" bellybutton turned back into an "innie!"
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